Young, foolish, not ready.
These are all the words that have been apart of my subconscious for a while now. So after a myriad of patch jobs, overcompensating, and irrational decisions, I've stopped long enough to evaluate, assess, plot out a fresh direction to this busy life I've been a part of.
Am I attempting anything grandiose or outrageous? Nope. But I am working on a life that others have modelled and even have mastered. I am a young man attempting to dive into the mystery of the Pastoral Imagination. Working to live, work, process what it means to be an active member in the “land of the living” as a young pastor.
With a whole lot of faith…blind faith to be exact, at the age of 23 I chose to move across the country to pursue the beginning of my career in full-time vocational ministry. I currently have a congregation of roughly one hundred high school students, that I am charged to shepherd, care for, and teach this “With God” life too. I don't have much of an idea of what I'm doing, or how I am supposed to do it, but I am continually evaluating, reevaluating, failing, and trying again to get a footing in the ever-changing world of a High Schooler.
While growing into the large shoes I was given to fill; I am attempting to immerse myself into the world of the Scriptures and theology, I am a little less than half-way done with my Masters of Divinity, and am taking much delight in the process. Do I have all the answers no? Do I want all the answers? Heck no! I am shaky at best, but I am interested in putting out a few of my thoughts while on this journey. I am young and need to start somewhere.
With that being said, I am here to post a few thoughts…but actively working to live out this mantra.
“How do I live this life in relation to others without competing?”
A long obedience in the direction of the God of Heaven and Earth…